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[2007. September. 30 @ 18 pm ] |
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I really never get mad. I don't hold grudges, however bad something is. Life isn't that easy. It's hard for me to understand how people can. It just seems so trivial and a waste of time, like they're submitting their lives to the control of petty emotions. Now, I'm NOT an apathetic person or anything. It's just easy for me to get over things, forgive and forget. People say it's bad to forget, you know, that whole repeating the past bit. But if you remember whatever bad situation...then it will come up again, it will bring up old emotions. You'll start to feel bitter again. So, remember the lesson and not the event because you can't change the past.
It's been difficult for me to get along with people lately because I think that.
Punchline said it well...
"So let's not ask for opposites of what we have
Like if its hot, let's try to be cool with that
And if its cool, sit by a fire
Fly a kite if you're bored
Take a nap if you're tired
Why are we so wicked indecisive
Let's hit the streets with toy explosives
And let's enjoy what we have"
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[2007. September. 14 @ 17 pm ] |
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My hands are tired from sewing. =(
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[2007. September. 14 @ 16 pm ] |
I have two interviews next week! Both of them are front desk/receptionist. One is at Studio Lotus. Pilates. And the other is at Bluff Media. Poker magazine...blah blah blah. =) Hehe. Studio Lotus is 10-12$ an hour and Bluff Media is 10-17$ an hour. SWEET!
Also, AWA XIII is next weekend. Stephen and I are going. Will be doing this...
Black fur. Not sure what color hair yet. Pink? We'll see how it goes. I'm not finished with it yet. *shrugs*
I am excited.
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[2007. September. 05 @ 21 pm ] |
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Stephen and I have been through a lot this year. Mostly due to me. It's usually always my fault. You'd think I'd learn after the first time. Right? With Brandon and all. Before he died he made me promise him that I wouldn't do to another guy what I did to him...and I didn't. Everything was great. Then he died. I guess I felt betrayed: he said he'd always be there for me. He keeps his promise. I keep mine. Right? I messed up and I hurt Stephen. Worse mistake of my life. I realize that. We've talked about it and we think we can work things out. I know his family and friends don't think that but they'll see it in time. I love Stephen and I don't want to give up on him at all. I don't want him to give up on me either. (= He's pretty much perfect. A lot of the mean things that he said were just reactions to what I had done. I understand that and I understand that I have a lot to do so that he sees that I'm serious. No more stupid boys...just one perfect one.
I'm tired of being sad. I want to fix that.
@ Sonic
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[2006. December. 13 @ 20 pm ] |
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Since The Killers were unable to play last week at Mistle Toe Jam they are doing a make-up show this Monday. Guess who else is going to be there? Cartel, Sparta and me! LOL. So, for $35...I will have seen AFI, Plain White T's, Jet, The Killers, Cartel and Sparta. All of this in one week, nonetheless. Thanks to Stephen. ^_^
That is pretty fucking rad!
[[Amber]]
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[2006. December. 13 @ 20 pm ] |
He is perfect and wonderful. I'm going to make him peach cobbler tomorrow and maybe give him a back rub. :p
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